Tuesday, March 22, 2011

He has picked me.

I have many Post-it notes, cards, and scraps of paper taped to the area around my desk and computer screen with verses of encouragement, quotes, and little reminders of the Lord's great vision, purpose, and love for me. After a pretty discouraging morning, I read one of these little notes stuck up with a piece of scotch tape that really spoke to my heart.

The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is on me,
because the Lord has anointed me
to preach the good new to the poor.
He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,
to proclaim freedom for the captives
and release from darkness for the prisoners...
- Isaiah 61:1

Sometimes I struggle with God's control over my life and other times I am grateful that He has that power over me. Some would view control as a burden and a blessing. I struggle with it because it means that things aren't going to happen the way I'd like for them to, and who doesn't have an issue with that? At other times I am grateful that our Lord knows what He is doing and He knows the condition of our hearts because He knows what is best for us and provides that best for us. There have been many instances where I was not pleased with the outcome of those moments, moments where you feel so frustrated because you don't have that grip. But as I sit here at my desk, I am grateful for God's design for my life - all the good moments, and all the heartwrenching moments. For I would not be the woman I am today, sitting here, trying to be the best example I can be, and full of much more wisdom than I had before.

I am blessed that God has led me to a place where He has given me the responsibility to lead teenagers closer to Him. I am blessed because I get to watch God work in the hearts of these teenagers. I am blessed with the challenges that come with being the new person in the group, blessed by the ones that challenge me and push me to pray for God's will and patience.

I am blessed.